I recently finished reading the book “Dying to be me” by Anita Moorjani and it got me thinking about living a life where you are being true to yourself. If you haven’t read the book I won’t go into too many details as I highly recommend reading it, if not only to just make you think about life in general. In the book, Moorjani basically goes into detail about her near death experience and what lessons she learned from it. I find it fascinating this idea that someone can die and experience the “other” side and live to tell about it.
One thing she talks about is the fact that she no longer fears death because she knows what it feels like and to her, it was a most glorious experience. I suppose that what most of us fear, is the end – this sort of unknown abyss that we’re all for sure going to reach. With that in mind, she has realized that for her, living means always being true to herself and really trusting her feelings in all aspects of living and decision making. (I’m really paraphrasing and not giving the book enough justice. This isn’t the only thing she talks about – but it’s one of the points that spoke to me).
So then I wondered, am I being true to myself? Or am I living my life according to everyone else who has had input into it, from parents, siblings, teachers, friends, my culture, society – everything all jumbled together – and sometimes it’s hard to separate what I really want, and what is basically the thousands of other voices telling me what I should do.
I have done so many different jobs and careers and lived in different places searching for what I suppose I thought was the real me. And in the end, after all these career changes, going back to school, living in various cities, I always find myself back in the same situation. I think I’m looking for these huge life changing events and moments that are supposed to define me. But really, they don’t. And I think what really defines me, is just me and living and being in the moment and just trusting in the whole process of life – that it will get me to where I need to be.